Our walk with God

I was talking with my husband last night after the house was settled and everything was all ready for his trip. I was sharing with him about how he has shaped my life and how he has shaped my relationship with the Lord. I was telling him how thankful I am for all he has done for me. I asked him, "How have I shaped your life? How have I influenced your relationship with God? He said nothing for a little bit, and I thought "oh great, I haven't impacted him at all, lol!"

But after a few moments, (which sometimes feel like a long time to the less patient,) he said that he doesn't really look at it as his spiritual life. It's more like our spiritual life. *Our* walk with God. I was touched. I thought about it and realized that he's right. Something has changed. My life is intimately tied to his. I guess I asked the wrong question. It isn't really his and mine any more. It's ours.

He left for Haiti this morning at 3:30. I feel like part of me is there with him. I wonder what it looks like there. I wonder where he is walking? I don't know, but I know that I am with him in my heart. I pray that God will pour out his spirit upon him and enlarge him. Let his heart be touched for the nations, and his spirit be broken with a compassion he has never known.

What if I loved God like that...

Sometimes it scares me how much one person can feel for another. I never thought that I could have such a love for my husband. But as we have grown together, I have started to understand things like trust and faithfulness. He has been a gift to me. I appreciate so many things about him.

He's leaving for Haiti in a couple of days. He is going on a missions trip with our church and will be gone for 8 days. I have spent the last couple of weeks contemplating our relationship and thinking about him being gone. I have had to work through some old issues of abandonment and fear, knowing that he will be leaving our "safe" life and entering into an unstable country. However, the thing that has stood out the most is how much I really love him!

But then another thought comes to me. How much do I love my Lord? Would I cry at the thought of him being gone? Do I cherish him? Do I share an intimate bond with him, a bond that brings tears and smiles to my eyes?

What if I loved God like that?

In anticipation,
Sara

The Rainbows!

Can you see them? Well, OK, I suppose you may only see one of them. But if you look closely... you might see another one. It's there and I have to tell you about it! The date was July 11, 2008. That was our tenth anniversary. We didn't do anything special, but that day was so special. Let me tell you why.

For months we had been talking about going on a trip or doing something "special" for our 10th anniversary. That's what people do, right? We should find a way to do it too. It would be fun! We had never taken a trip alone, and we rarely did things to celebrate our marriage. I was excited! This was going to be so much fun! Well after we found out that we were going to have another baby shortly before our anniversary, that changed things. We decided to postpone those plans. Maybe our 20th anniversary? Sigh. It had sounded fun. But as always, God knows what is truly special. He knows how to touch us in the most meaningful ways.

We ended up staying home. No fancy vacation. No fancy dinner. We walked outside and found rain. Bummer. It's our anniversary and it's been raining. Not really what I had hoped for. But then when we looked up in the sky, we saw the most stunning sight. There was a rainbow! Beautiful and glorious, spreading it's colors like a banner across the sky. I looked over at my husband and noticed that there were not one, but two rainbows in the sky! WOW! Our God is so amazing! A master artist! I love to look at his paintings. They are splendid. So deep, so full of meaning, so beautiful.

I had to take some pictures! I will always treasure these pictures. They tell the story of hope that God has started to reveal to my heart. They are a precious gift. They tell of God's promises to us.