As we have been preparing our house for sale, I have been stressing over the paint colors. I want to get things just right. I want the paint lines to be straight. I want the colors to flow from one room to the next. I want to make things look good for the next person who will live here. Some of the colors are working out great! And some are just a little off.
But I really do not have time to be messing up! We have so much to do, and these precious moments when family and friends are watching our kids need to be spent wisely! Aaaaaaaaah! I feel like I cannot afford to choose the wrong colors. We need to get this houses listed, and we need to do it now! But then I stop and realize that I am doing it again. I am getting tunnel vision. I see the slight shade of some silly neutral color, and my eyes fixate on it.
But why don't I see that I am doing the best that I can? Why don't I see that the next person who moves in will probably just paint different colors anyhow? Why don't I see that these are all just externals, that the color of paint is only an outer layer of Low VOC, bought with the rebate, one color out of like 2 million different choices, that I brought home and put on the wall???
And even if I did get "just the right color," it would not look good painted on walls of striving and perfectionism. The right color looks all wrong when it means that I am snapping at my kids or neglecting the more important things.
I need to pause, take a deep breath, and let the lens focus outward. Let my eyes see bigger, let my heart see larger. Things will all come together, and I am going to need to keep my eyes focused on the one who colors my life with true beauty.
Love
Grace
Perspective
Gratitude
Joy
These are the colors that will look best. And how about a thankful heart? How about a spirit of gratitude that appreciates all of the hard work my husband is doing rather than grumbling about the flaws that I think I can see.
If you have taken the time to read this, would you please pray for me? Life is busy and stressful. I could use some help choosing the right color. Thank you!
